There have been better days...

Wow, is this ever difficult!  I'm feeling so many emotions right now it's not even funny: anger, sadness, fright, nervousness, a slight, slight bit of relief/happiness, just general melancholy.   I got laid off from work today.  It wasn't anything I did, simply the crappy economy.  My boss was forced to lay off one person from each department, and, unfortunately, I am (or was) the only person in my department.

Man, does this ever put a cramp on things, though - Jenny had already gotten laid off from her job about a month and a half ago, so we were adjusting to that monetarily, and now this.  I'm not jumping to any conclusions - we'll have to see what happens as far as work goes in the next few weeks.  Hopefully we'll be able to keep up with the house payments, etc., and everything will be okay.

I tell you what, though - I'm pretty much ready to look anywhere for work. I love St. Louis, and I love our house, but maybe this is just a sign that we need to get the heck outta Dodge!  You never know what God's got in store for ya.  I know that before we got laid off, both of us were pretty much sick of the jobs, and both felt like we were just stuck in a rut.  We both want to go back to school, too - try to figure out what we wanna do when we grow up! ;-)

I really would love to get back to what I originally wanted to do when I moved up here (almost 20 years ago!), which is to be a recording studio engineer.  I'd love to focus on recording bands, but I understand that very few bands even use studios anymore - they do it all at home in their basements!  Ad agencies, PR firms, and other professional firms like that use them all the time, though, and that's good enough for me.  Anything in the studio is alright with me - I just love to be in that environment, whether you're recording music for a "hit single", or a local commercial, or just telling people that they should appreciate soybeans, I would love to record your stuff!  I just need to learn everything all over again - it's all changed so much since I was in college and interning at Clayton Studios!  ProTools , which is the main program used for recording/editing, had just come out at that time, and now it's almost commonplace in every musician's basement!

Well, here's a little bright yellow stripe for you, and for me - to remind me that brighter times are ahead.  They have to be!  We won't give up!